Recently, I’ve noticed that I’ve fallen into some sort of routine..I do almost the exact same thing every single day..it’s like I’m reliving the same day all over again..it’s like I’m living in my own little bubble…it’s comfortable, safe…though, I know that someone will come and burst this bubble anytime now…it’s just a matter of time….today, a friend of mine told me something and it gave me the push I needed..she said that I should just do whatever job the comes my way and just take it one step at a time..somehow, I felt comforted by her words, less angry..I mean what percentage of people in the world actually have the perfect job? All i can do now is just do my best to find a job that will earn me just enough to make ends meet..the government has already started sending me letter to ask me to repay my student loans..I haven’t even got a job for crying out loud..sheesh..I’m trying to learn to live the moment and stop worrying about the future…It’s really difficult though..Fear of the unknown can really eat a person alive…I’m really obfuscated about myself..I don’t understand what the hell am I doing…I’m acting like a whiny little kid, complaining away…Don’t know why?It seems like I’m the only one who’s so freaking lost..All my friends, course mates, university mates have no problem finding jobs and they are very clear of the paths they should go..I wish I was like them..then I don’t have to sit here, typing some nonsensical stuffs on this pathetic blog..sigh..i really need to find me some human contact…should I call 1-800-RENT-A-FRIEND??? *runs to get the phone*
